confused~

i really dunt understand the terms of relationship i got into. where and what exactly the mistake ? or been in love is a big mistake for girls like me ..maybe i shud shut down n keep silence. sometime silences is worth it than talking too much rubbish. but..hmm...i dunt know the answer. i juz couldnt find it, i tried to search it, seek it, but i dunt see any.maybe im the mistake, am i ?? since the day u screwed-up things, i felt its really complicated been in this path. im feeling dying to get this last for 3months as u see. its more hurts, talking rubbish, tears coming out AND A BITE FROM YOU, yeah that's it. a bite..am i deserve for that ??!! huh !! hmm..what is it actually. its in the stage that so and extremely complicated and critical. im dying to save everything that's own me. *sigh....sorry to saying all this harsh words if u think so. i just lost where and who, or what shud i talk to. maybe talking to a trees, pets, people ? hmm i think people will just make it more trouble if not so, people can just say "ouh..im really sorry for hear that" arghh...only this people can do. saying the sorry-sorry words or make it harder complicated. to make this BRIDGE call-off..i dunt think so, cuz i already loved you. maybe i just have to let it be...just go with flow. and playing with your games. get into your games, maybe..look its a MAYBE. im lost, confused! i dunt want to leave...i want to FIX ! but how to fix if the tools are all totally broken. u, me, the tools, everything...the bridge is coming soon to fall-out. hmm...you have to changed, u have no patience all u have is anger. maybe u shud go for anger management to manage the anger that too much in you.so do i...but sometime i really realize that u CANT manage it at all. am i failed to build you? the failure is always with me.its all MY FAULT yeah..my fault...