pelengkap hidup ku :)

26th of MAY 2011.............
the very first day u met my family and my bro's fiance wannabe :)
my heart was beating faster than ever ..
 :) 
kamo kamo kamo.....saya buat perangai bila saya rendu kamo sangat sangat...
kadang-kadang rasa nak nanges je...
tapi tadi saya nages sebab laen..kamo marah2 saya...
kamo maki-maki saya...
kamo ckp saya penipu~
kamo cakap saya babi..
salo saya takde nak kesah pun kmo ckp lah ape pun tak terkesan "der kat aty wa"~
tp tadi..saya nages bace message kmo..
saya bia je kamo maki2 saya..memang PERLU pun, sebab saya yang salah..
saya mintak maaf taw kamo... :( sedih sangat...
saya takde niat pun nak buat kamo rase mcm syial...saya mintak maaf ...
:( kamo maafkan saya ker tak..
kalau saya buat salah lagi lepas ni...saya akan biarkan je kamo marah2 and maki hamun saya,
mana tahu tu yang terakhir kamo dapat buat macam tu kat saya...
lagipun kamo oraNG paling susah skali nak marah2 saya...saya janji takkan lawan..saya janji saya akan bairkaN je :)
cuma satu je yang kamo perlu tahu&ingat....saya sayang kamo, dan akan terus belajar menyayangi kamo BUKAN orang laen~

"ingin aku jadikan kamo pelengkap hidup ini,
ingin aku jadi yang sebaliknya untuk kamo.."hidup nie tak mudah dan semakin meningkat usia memang tiada apa yang mudah dalam melalui perjalanan hidup ni...aku ingin terus bersama kamo..biar masa yang menentukan..biar peluang memisahkan.
"ade kamo untuk aku" <<< yang sering engkau ungkapkan..
"ade aku untuk kamo" <<< yang tak pernah terzahir di bbir, tapi sering terlahir di akal fikiran aku...


terima kasih hadir dalam hidup ni :) 

cukup 30 hari bersama kmo, mR.cinta haty~

hAri iNi .. 22 mAy 2011.. gEnaPlAh sEbuLan Aku bErsAma zIeE..
mAcaM-mCm yAng Aku LalUi,
mCam2 YAng Aku rAse dGn ZiEe ..

ZiEe katE..."hArap BuLan dePan B boLey wiSh "HAPPY ANNIVERSARY" lAgi kAT cyG...
aKu juGa hArAp bEgiTu, IncEQ cIntA hAty :)

sEjuJurnYa aKu tErhARu, Aku bANggA mEmiLikI kMo ZiEe... :)
30 hAri bErsAme Kmo...bEgiTu SusAh pYAh nYA Aku MenjAge hUbuNgAn inI, AGar tRos hIdup, tErUs HanGat RsA iNi bErsMa kMo...

"eNgkAu HAdiR tiDAk kU pIntA,
engKAu mEnghiAsi TAman hAty..
tiDAk Aku DugA,
eNgkaU meNgikAt..
tIdaK aKu JANgka".

B, AkU hARAp kiTA maMpu lAlui sEgaLanyA dAlam hIduP iNi sELama kiTA akAn bErsAMa :)

   happy anniversary 1month ziee :) <3
forever it will be~

                                                                                               

happily urs~

b, i dunno how to describe my feeling..

i dunno how to let you know how u meant so much to me..

when i lost you bout 7hours 15minutes yesterday ...

im gone crazy...

im so worried like hell bout ya~

where have you been la bhabikk !!

you'r sleeping like a bitch ..

hmm...love you love you love you la bhabikk...

                                cheeziee <3 <3 <3

you'r my perfect distraction~

 for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing
for the ending of my first begin

(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
and for the rare and unexpected friend
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
for the way you're something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily (ever after) (oh oh oh)
the way you smile and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter

you're the best thing i never knew i needed 

so when you were here i had no idea

you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

who knew that I could be here
so unexpectedly
  undeniable happy
said with you right here, right here next to me

girl you're the..
you're the best thing i never knew i needed 

so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed 

so now it's so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it's so clear i need you here always

always be mine~

laughter seems to take the risk of a fool,

crying is taking the risk to seem sentimental,

to express ur feeling, it may be revealed the inside of you,

too much expect will risk to be disappointed,

and...

love is taking the risk of not being loved back

bercinta tu mempunyai risiko untuk tidak dicintai 

kembali....

                                            

                                        22 of April 2011 ... im urs, n u'r mine :)

b, hope we gonna be lasting n less arguments~

love u b~

why cant this feeling just fade away~

i cant think straight when it comes bout you..
through out this days, its all about you n always bout you..
yes, its true im the one who fucked up everything, but truly deeply madly inside, its always about you..
no one else ever loved me so perfectly and missed me so badly the way u did .
calm me so warmly, cared bout me so madly, you loved me n i still ...

why cant this feeling just fade away..
when we just cant be together anymore...
why ? why ? why ?

go with flow~

 life is about CHOICES..
whether u want to choose the best or conversely~
or....
is it really bout "CHOICES", "THE BEST" n "not to" ??
or is it bcuz of...we like it, we love it, we want to have it, n no matter how it is..bad or not, we juz want to have it n care bout it so we choose it .
is it ?


my life is ............ sumtime fine,  sumtime its juz fine ..sumtimes its down to the bottom land once .
i live it juz the way it wantt it to be. 

i do really miss u .. we juz cant be together~

I miss you babe

girl i know i been busy didn't get to talk

but don't let your head play them games with your heart

its been a little crazy doing what i do

but i just cant wait to get home with you

i know its been hard me not being there

baby i don't want you thinking that i don't really care

and i know that your feeling like i'm being unfair

but your love is with me everywhere

when i dream i think of you

breath i think of you

all day i think of you

give all my love to you my baby boo

swear its true all i do is think of you

when i pray i think of you

far away i think of you

all day i think of you

my heart belongs to you my baby boo

yes its true all i do is think of you

always say i love you before i go to sleep

if i die before i'm awake then i take your love with me

every second i'm away from you feels like misery

cuz i know where i really want to be

i know its been hard me not being there

baby i don't want you thinking that i don't really care

and i know that your feeling like i'm being unfair

but your love is with me everywhere

when i dream i think of you

breath i think of you

all day i think of you

give all my love to you my baby boo

swear its true all i do is think of you

when i pray i think of you

far away i think of you

all day i think of you

my heart belongs to you my baby boo

yes its true all i do is think of you

what do you do when you love someone so much

you'll do almost anything just for one touch

trying to make an excuse just to get away

that's the way i feel about you baby

when i leave do you know what i go through

it makes me cry every time cuz i miss you

and i hope you feel the same way to

cause all i do is think of you

when i dream i think of you

breath i think of you

all day i think of you

give all my love to you my baby boo

swear its true all i do is think of you

when i pray i think of you

far away i think of you

all day i think of you

my heart belongs to you my baby boo

yes its true all i do is think of you

all i do is think of you

cross mind~

 to maintain the happiness its hard, to gve u this happiness its damn harder. if i cud cut myself into pieces n let every single person around me be happy, i would do it. i want you, awk, kmo, kau, happy . but i cant. iam the one who crying alone in a lonely nite, i hurt myself by hurting u guys. by saying love n misses its all hurting me. my heart is no longer working.it is completely destroyed, fully damaged. i can feel nuthin . i cant keep this love more longer, its hurt. leave me leave me leave me .

iam damn critical, iam unpredictable, iam difficult, iam suck, iam totally fucked up !!~