ma, i miss you~

apa yang aku rasa, hanya aku dan yang diatas sahaja yang mengerti. orang laen mungkin boleh tahu, tapi mampukah mereka mengerti ? ape pon korang bukan di tempat aku. ape yang aku rasa...apa yang aku buat sekarang bukan untuk kesenangan diri aku semate2. tapi banyak yang aku fikirkan...komitment akan datang. kesenangan orang yang sayang aku lebih dari ape pon. cukuplah aku menyusahkan die jage aku spai aku yang sekarang nie. this moment, i really feel this is it. this is the time. time for me to wakeup from a long comfort dreamy sleep. wakeup to take care of her. i dunt know how to show the love i had...this is the way..im quitting to give her a comfortable life at that age...she's not strong anymore. i dunt bear to see her crying. its hurts me. more than broken hearted, failed in love. its more than that. i dunt describe my feeling to her, i dunt show. i dunt even know how. ma, if i dunt live a long, please belief i always loves you. i always pray for your happiness. im sick, no worries ma, im not dying yet. start from now on, all the medicine will always be with me. loves you ma :)

i'll be back soon and bring a smile on your face, ma.

regards, ur fucking crazy daughter :)